fucking addicted to this.

been putting my holidays to a good use, like bloody finally!
makes me wanna be a half Brazilian girl who lives in Bristol that snogs Italians guys on skateboards.

like this precious, right here.


addicted to this also.



currently anticipating this one. watching in on Youtube isn't satisfying.

i want this fucking awesome haircut.
just not the length, it will be longer.

so i'm on my 8 weeks holiday now.
survived the first week.
Barbie came down to Penang with her friends, and i politely crashed the party.
it was fun.
i also spent my entire allowence on dvds. imagine that.
i strained my neck because all i've been doing day & night is watch damn a lot of ANTM and movies.

anticipating Redang trip, i wish people could fucking chill and let me do my shit my way.
i am also on a quest to loose weight or rather get abs. it's not so abs-sy since i quit sports. =(
damn big sigh.
i'm a nocturnal and i want milk.

whales and me

i am so lifeless.
so ignorant to the fact that my finals is in a week. i just studied 1 and a half chapters out of..oh i don't know. ten perhaps.
so i let my time go to waste FB-ing and YouTubing whales and kangaroos giving birth.
i love staring at other creatures delivering new life to this world, makes me feel calm and joyous in a way.
i even bookmarked national geographic: in the womb on my calendar.
9 pm this sunday people, GO WATCH!!!
why do i like new-borns?
perhaps to ignite my non-existance motherly instincts.
pppfft.
i might consider it.

oh, and i miss pot.
coz i feel like watching across the universe when im high.
and i sleep like a baby (seeeeee!)
yes, i am awesome.

God hates psychologists so i assume that i just throw my book in a bin. =D

=(

SIGH SIGH SIGH.
what the hell.
hectic week okay.
i feel like swearing till my eyes bleed. i swear to God.
i feel like smoking and drinking till i OD-ed myself.
i feel like blasting my favourite songs and rocking on my air guitar.
i feel like making out with Jake Gyllenhaal.
i want new shoes. i want new shoes. i want new shoes.
i want to roll around in my pair of new imaginary shoes and my pretty Miss Selfidge dress.
i want to smoke lagi.
i want to be in OU looking at beautiful clothes, people and shoes and go to watch a fucking bimbo movie after.
i can't fucking wait for july and rain forest festival.
i can't fucking wait to kill my final exams.
i can't wait for the day that i am done with this shit hole and the shit people that this shit hole keeps.
i cant wait for thursday and semester break so that i can go jogging with Diana and my Mom.
i cant wait for my beach holidays with my friends and boyfriend.
i cant wait till i have proper InDesign and Adobe Photoshop in my computer so i can go fucking crazy editing pictures.
i cant wait to reformat my computer.
i cant wait for Europe.
i cant wait for my degree programme.
i cant wait to watch Bambi again and again.
i want effin new bands that play awesome songs.
i cant wait for the day that i get the vaccine for uterus cancer.
i cant wait for my hair to grow long,cover my boobs so i can be a mermaid.
i cant.. SIGH.
can i just die now?
i hate pests.
espacially in human form.



not you. i love you.
eat me.

i'm at home.
i feel like a walking toxic. all the shit in my brain and system.

good stuff.
things i like:



cute dresses.



amazing hair.



photos like this.



mask. nice prints. black & white photos



this amazing girl.



simplicity



individuality



cameras.

and JOHN FRUSCIANTE.

his picture is not here because i am too lazy to google anymore.
=(

my neck hurts. ouch

aeroplane

i get this wave of sadness everytime i see or think of an aeroplane.
i want to fly away from here and be with new people.
like today, i chocked back my tears.
my dreams are too far and wide.
i fear that i might not achieve it.
people like me rarely get the best of everything.
it's always people like... you, you and you.